The Adventure Begins

I purposefully left blogging until the very end because I didn't want to leave anything out and then regret it after I'd clicked submit. S even though I'm tired, and I'll regret it tomorrow because our actual work starts at 7am, I'll take this time to reflect on what I did and learned today.
Like Mariana, I had big big reservations about coming back a week earlier than class started. Like many of us who knew each other on a surface level, today gave me new insight into a few a amazing people that I go to school with.
Though the morning was spend reflecting on the book, the thing that made the most impact on my was the Tablaue Vivance (one-frame scenes) because of their simplified, personal and more effect take on parts of the book. I found it hard to get through certain chapters of the book, namely, Sins of the Fathers, that were made easier to fathom and process through this dramatic activity. That type of shame, embarrassment and venerability is something that is so foreign to me, and I almost feel naive for not being able to aid the situation or relate to victim better because of a lack of experience. This chapter, along with others, were frustrating for me to read because they did not offer concrete solutions within the text. In such a foreign and depressing topic for me, I needed that blatant solution given to me so I could help the situation, and it wasn't there.
The Cross the Line Activity was an activity that I had never done before, I for that reason I didn't know exactly what to make of it. During our circle reflection of the entire experience, I stated that I did not like the activity because I didn't like coming to terms with certain harsh past experiences. I think that's pretty accurate, because I don't like reminding on bad experiences that I have overcome. I don't get joy out of realizing that I have come out of something difficult, I simply remember the hard past that I had to live with for a given period of time due to various circumstances. Now, reflecting on my reflection, I think I need to change my attitude, stop being a pessimist, and realize how privileged I am, how much I've overcome as an individual, and what I can learn from due to my past. What I did appreciate from this activity, however, was the openness and willingness of everyone to share bits of themselves that I probably would not have been brave enough to share if I was in their shoes. Much love to you all <3
I've done this immersion before, and I know what to generally except. I think for that reason, and with my new, optimistic outlook, I know what to prepare myself for, what bad things I need to look out for, and what parts were good last time and how to make them even better!
With that, I'm going to get as much sleep as I can, so tomorrow can come faster.